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friday night KP meet was piles of fun, despite the rain and the difficulty in getting transport afterwards. nina has a theory that the rain trails after rael like a pet dog. it rains whereever she goes man~ x.X;;
( just two quick pics )
a funny thing happened during the meet that did not involved the org at all, just a nice old japanese man who overheard us talking about HATSUNE MIKU XD he was so pleased to find local kids (plus yue lol~) who liked japanese toys and games, so he gave us his calling card and said that we can e-mail him anytime to buy stuff for us direct from AKIBA XD
on saturday we headed off to UP DILIMAN to iron out the arrangements for LO. we also met up with pao for a quick primer on being a cafe maitre d', and managed to finagle for another butler in the process. unfortunately kel said he refused to wear the HARD GAY suit, so it's HANEKOMA cosplay for him lawl~
( interior/exterior shots of the venue~ )
rael and i might be off in the bit to BACLARAN to pick up more con supplies and maybe get to bite to eat. we've plumb cleaned out our pantry -- i think the only think we have left to eat are cheese and crackers XD
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| The tales we spin |
[12 Aug 2008|10:56pm] |
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Sometimes I feel like I'm in denial. I don't really know what I'm doing. I'm so unsure of what I want. Do I really love him? If I do then why is it I can't seem to please him?
Maybe I'm disillusioned. I know that a relationship is suppose to be one of understanding and being able to confide in everything to each other. Knowing that we can mutually support each other in all areas. Maybe i'm being demanding. Maybe my expectations are too high. Maybe this isn't what I truly want.
But when I look into his eyes I feel my soul just burst. I want so much to just run and hug him but I do remember that there are certain rules to follow. Some set decorum. It feels like shit knowing that I can only approaching him when we are alone. With people about there are roles to upkeep. I need love. I feel ... I dunno. Communication is needed.
Sometimes I wish, and such a frivalous wish it is, that he could see exactly how i feel without me saying anything. Sometimes it's so painful to put things in words. I just wish I could communicate everything i felt to him with my eyes, my touch... just so that he could see... I'm not cold. I'm not distant. I'm just sad.
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| Across the Temasek... |
[12 Aug 2008|12:06am] |
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Things have been stressing at work lately so Alan and I jumped at a chance to go to Singapore with his mum and younger brother for the weekend. Left on Wednesday after work got there in time for supper ^_^ It was good trip. I spent alot of money buying things for him XD I just like dressing him up. It's like my personal Ken Doll but now with TopShop and Pull and Bear ^_____^ I think this trip was more topshop tho XD Ate as Max B's as well. Good as always but the service was a bit slow. The fondue makes up for it ^___^ Even his mum said "wow! I never knew strawberries can taste this good with chocolate" I found out she was like me. Likes teh dark chockies ^__^ Went to Daiso and the 4 of us spend above 50 bucks. That's alot considering it was a 100yen shop XD It was a good holiday. Was a perfect opportunity for me to get away from everything and really allow my mind to be still and contemplate. This weekend alot of things happened.
8th August: The Olympic opening ceremony was awesome! It was spectacular display of opulent wealth. Seeing how far the chinese people have come and the heart and soul that they put into creating that open ceremony made me feel proud to actually stand up and say I'm chinese. I might not be born in the motherland but I have the blood. It was a full 4 hours of pure awe.
9th August: Singapore had their National Day this weekend too. Lots of sales going on everywhere XD I was totally in my element darting from shop to shop flipping price tags and swimming in bargain bins. I don't necessarily need to buy anything. It's just the foraging or hunt I crave. It's almost like going back to that basic human instinct to search for the best something that no one else has and then share it with everyone. Sort of a way of lording it over the rest that you are the best *muahahahaha* I mean. where in Malaysia can you get a brand new pair of men's topshop super skinny jeans size36 for only RM60 ??? Exactly!!! It's a price I'm more than happy to pay especially after seeing his delectable bottom in them *drools*
9th August: We had our 1 year anniversary today. Wow... A full year. 366 days considering it's a leap year but who's counting? *cynical smile* He gave me one of the most thoughtful gifts that I've ever received. It was a watercolour field kit from Daler-Rowney. I was so happy. Too bad I didn't have the opportunity to stop and paint this weekend. I was very tempted but I didn't want people hanging around waiting for me. I wanted very much to do a sitting with him. I never really got the chance to paint him for real. Doing it digitally wouldn't be as cool as a paint. Maybe this week I'll get a chance. Hopefully.
Some stuff has been plaguing me for a while in regards to my relationship with Alan. Like I mentioned earlier I had a lot of time to percolate over them during this break. I have deduced that it is contributed by a number of factors.
1. Hormones = the bane of youth
2. Age = the other bane of youth
3. Love = too much of a good thing?
4. God = omnipresent beyond the point of persistance
I'm sure there's more but those are the ones that standout the most.
( This is my Story. Grab a cuppa tea and come sit with me. )
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[07 Aug 2008|03:17pm] |
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